Who needs this?

Who needs this? Why am I starting this blog?

It is fashionable! It's a kind of therapy! exhibitionism!I repetedly said I dont like it!
This blog, if there will be one, will be about nothing as Seinfeld famously said.
I personally need to do something about my waisting time problem, go into a writting discipline. R. says (and others) that it is v.v. important. So, here I am, writting!
About what?

Thoughts in front of a window in a gray day in Sofia, Bulgaria, listening to a bbc music program, contemplating the rest of a dolce farniente day of a more than 3 yearscontinuous holiday. Holiday is not about only travelling, partying, relaxing. It could be about What did I do wrong? What is wrong with me? is it only me or others too? what did I miss? what is to be done? isn't too late? do I have the energy or the motivation for that matter?  who needs me? how could/can I contribute? did I waste my life? and if so, so what?had I have a say? did I mean to waste it? I failed. Bogdan would ask: were there anything to fail?


A lot to think about! to rethink actually, because most of the answers are there but not good enough to make me change the still life situation.